I can tell it’s getting bad again when I don’t want to run.

I know I almost always feel less depressed after a run, but I just don’t want to. My roommate forced me to run last night, and I’m glad she did because I DID feel better afterwards. But right now I really don’t want to get out of bed. I don’t want to do anything.

Yesterday I tried to go to class, but when I was on the bus I started having a panic attack. When the bus stopped I ran to the bathroom and immediately started sobbing. Then I could not stop crying. My wonderful roommate picked me up and took me home, but while I was waiting outside I still couldn’t stop crying, and everyone kept staring at me.

Why is this happening?