And now I feel like absolute shit. Mentally and physically. I feel guilty because a lot of it wasn’t vegan or healthy. I was at work and there were ‘fun sized’ candy bars in the back. I don’t even know how many I ate. I was there for 8.5 hours and whenever I went into the stock room (which was a lot) I would have at least one.
The day started out really well. I had a smoothie for breakfast. I think work was stressing me out so I started eating. Then I couldn’t stop.
coffee w/chocolate soymilk
a ton of asiago crackers with jam
SO MANY fun sized candy bars
chocolate chip pumpkin muffin
I still want to eat more, but I think if I do I will throw up.
Now I feel like my stomach is going to explode. I’m running 13 miles on trails in the morning. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I have binge eating disorder. I get so full, but I just can’t stop eating. And then I feel guilty, so I don’t eat much for a few days. And then I get really hungry so I eat a ton. And it continues.
I hate it.
I know this post is pretty random but I just needed to get this out.